so theres this white man

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 okay so i thought about this white man.


identities

white

southern

artistic

austistic

social work background?


now! 


I know people in his family rasict. He already told me. 


Now, this needs to be reflected on because


wait.


do white men get scared easily? i dont think so a lil bit lmao


cause black men dont get scared but like

they be like battling with "you go against social norms" to the point that they got to question how much THEY go against social norms. and most white boys know they gay. so less work.


Black women. sigh. I wanna love yall!!! and I will and do!!!! 


Im not dating a white woman. No shade. lmao. never say never? no. 


Ima tell him "I will leave you for a black woman."


Im not gone shoot my shot. but i might. i just want company and sex. and i celebrate that.


i feel like he gone get on my nervous so im not ALWAYS gone want his company. 


im nervous

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