On Leisure Pt 2.

    *So I continued on. Wishing and hoping that I'd get some BIG IDEA that could coast me through my college research. I knew it would be Black related. But overtime I grew sad. Anytime I reflected on where I came from, I felt sadness. How could I be happy seeing my people engage in things without knowing why they were engaging with them. However my emotions were saved by Black Women. Those working class and lower. I said "Damn. Now them some bitches who know how to take something effed up and make it GREAT." Cause frankly, using ANYTHING that comes out of beauty supply store demonstrates resilience and creativity and however circumstances don't have to matter. Ranging from itchy kanekalon**, to harmful nickle***-fused earrings, and don't forget the hair jam that pulls your edges out. I was amazed and reaffirmed by the trial and error of constantly wasting money on things that wont work GREAT for your hair, wardrobe, makeup, and overall wellbeing, yet this group nonetheless adopts the " Ima make it do what it do baby" (cue Jamie Foxx), and develops trends strong and beautiful enough to enter the global exchange. Literally, I went from "woe is pity my people" to damn.. we alright lol. And don't get me wrong, shit it still fucked up (Can i cuss on here? I AM).

    So anyways. You know in college... actually, let me explain the college structure real quick for unsuspecting minds.

How is college structured in the 21st century?

    At your start you will ensure you have the foundations. You want a strong steady foundation before you embark on YOUR interest (similar to child rearing). It's also common to have such courses because this large system we exist within has discrepancies everywhere and it's challenging to confirm everyone has the necessary foundations to continue growth. Though this could could be controlled via testing scores, that could lead to elitism. Which is what's lovely about community college and HBCU's. Yes, their pots are mix-y. However, they truly contribute to elevation of groups. 

1. After a GENERAL check up on your foundations (Writing, Reading, Speaking, Calculations (my college class placed an emphasis on probability. I think that's funny. "Whats the likelihood I'll become famous?)), you'll transition to the foundations of your interests i.e. Writing, Reading, Speaking on THIS TOPIC. And within this process you are to be discussing and exploring what exactly draws you to your interest. Why did you choose it. Practice speaking on that as you learn terms that better represent your concepts than when you didn't know them. 

a. You'll weed out things. Pull in things. You may even be like me and weed yourself out, deciding that you don't like your major and just aren't that interested. I'm blessed in that I originally majored in Strategic Communications so I got the benefit of learning sentence structure before I switched over. 

2. The practice continues. You'll continue to learn more information. Keep in mind, you don't HAVE to change around your core interest. As you learn in these other courses, explore how they apply to your topic. Or be poly and flirt with a bunch of different topics. You may find that your topics aren't THAT different, in that you have flushed your core out (think of a flower before it blooms. It's still a flower in there, when you can't see it, but you see it even more once its opened).  

3. Because our structure includes only four years (and you CAN take more time. If you can, DO take more time), you'll find yourself cracking down in year three. They're all like "hey you got your topic?? Let's add some DATA to that hoe" and you're all like "Data? We're just dating!!!"  

Then you'll find yourself scrambling for numbers. Like oh... this isn't just an experience... people actually EXPERIENCE this, and I can TRACK that. Especially if you around people who like to argue. Or you can just be like me and say "Defend it yourself motherfuckers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know I'm right!" 

But yeah. This occurring in year three sucks. Cause you really are just flirting with topics, and some of them you're learning to understand on a wide scale. How wide is this scope? Who am I missing in this data? Who does it apply to? How far do these boundaries extend?****  

4. So yeah. 4th year. Wrap that bitch up, it's time to go. Your teachers are flirting with other younger students' ideas. You're technically busy looking at what's next. If your research was gonna hit, it already would've done it by now cause you would've been seeking to get published officially somewhere, and not just at the local college nearby. *sigh*.

So go into college ready. Or with parents who are published academics who've been structuring your childhood to gear you up to pick a topic a love it like your wife. But I'm black. So I ain't do that. and if  YOU'RE black in academia. You too need to come to terms that WHATEVER you do, will not look like your white counterparts. *sigh* I'm still struggling with that one. I just left a skatepark, inspired by Pt. 1. And I go "These white men aren't a work. And granted, barely anyone is outside at 10 am but majority of those who are, are white". 

By the time I left college, I was destitute with ideas I believed fell flat, but dammit it was a STRONG 2D! I knew I wanted leisure. For myself. For my people. I wanted an international body that could govern... represent my people's best interests abroad. And then yesterday I learned of the Paris Exposition of 1900******... and anarchy. :)

*Now, are indentations REALLY required? Or is that aesthetics doing too much? Y'all feel like it makes reading better/easier for y'all? I can maybe see it. I'm in that era of questioning white things. Who made indentations??

**(BLOGGER ANTIBLACK FOR NOT RECOGNIZING THAT WORD) 

****Blogger wanted me to capitalize Nickle SO bad... well if a damn COINED get capitalized... idk. I was gone say Black should definitely be capitalized but we might need to get in our bell hooks bag and stop all the shits. 

*(About here is where I'm questioning my paragraph structure. But some of these sentences just DON'T go together and need their own spotlight!)

******Someone discussed at the least they attempt to purchase texts from the publisher of a text. Doesn't fully apply for me cause I'm a pdf pirate!